This is not the usual post a 22 year old girl would make about being single. I am not happy about my situation because I can have "girls time" when I want, or because I can sleep with whoever I want, or so I can do what I want when I want. I am glad that I am not married at 22 because I know marriage requires a LOT of work. Not that I am not willing to put in the work, but I know that the person I was at 18 is not the same as the person I am today. If done correctly, marriage is a lifelong commitment. I would hate for someone to have married the me I was at the age of 18. I can see how God is changing me to be a better Christian, spouse, person, servant, worker, etc. I can see the changes He is making in me. I can see that He is teaching me not to settle for the first person that comes my way. I can see that He is teaching me how to be persistent when things are hard, which is extremely important in a marriage. Rumor has it, marriage isn't all sunshines and rainbows.
My current situation reminds me of the song "What If" by Blanca. The lyrics read:
"I get these thoughts inside my head
What if I don't have what it takes
What if things don't ever change
Then I remember what You said
You will fulfill your promises
And all the questions go away
I know you're holding me up
I know your love is enough
I know the power in Your name, Could do anything
And I know you're making me strong
I know you were here all along
I know I'm right where you want me
I know I'm where I need to be
I know you're holding me up
I know your love is enough
I know the power in Your name
Could do anything
And I know you're making me strong
I know you were here all along
I know I'm right where you want me."
"I know you're making me strong, what if I am right where you want me?" I love this part. It is so powerful. He knows where we are and He knows what we need to go through to become strong. How amazing is that? He cares so much about us that He won't give us something BEFORE we are ready. Wow!